Sunday, November 21, 2010

I don't know who to talk to. Well Im stuck in a bad situation. A situation that can cause both chaos and suffering.. I don't know what I should do. I realised how true or REAL my brother's words are. Freedom is the need of everyone. I feel that my Freedom is constricted. I cant ride anytime as I like. Im hooked to something big.. I cant simply back off, because it will shatter somebody's life.

I started to realise the meaning of word "Enjoy". Its just insane. It makes one go superly crazy and feel so great when you had the fullest ENJOY. But now, I just have to adhere that Enjoy is getting lesser and lesser for me. I cant ride anytime I want. I cant Sleep anyhow without reporting. I cant do anything anytime because I know, Im tied to something...Love...

At 9pm no one knows tears was running down my cheek cause it was a short one.. I miss my previous life.. Yes, I say this, someone might come and see and be hurt.. But this is the only place i've got to let it all out.. I dont know why I just want to be free like a soaring bird.. I just want to feel, Im free.. No limits. Nothing. But just to myself and my life. But I know, Nothing can change that. I want to disappoint nobody. So, even if its a pain to me, I'll just take it.

Still By Myself..!, Sunday, November 21, 2010.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

It was about a decision to be made that changes the structure of life. You are given a choice, but then the choices given are none of your favour. This equate to, You dont have a choice. Its not about how we decide. But its about how we choose to decide. If we decide blindly, then your future will be blind. But if you decide with faith and confidence, your future will definitely be bright, always "Happiness Assured"

But at times, things does not go the way we wanted. So how? Change some of the way to our way, yet sticking to the way provided. I wont fall. I wont leave. But I'm just afraid of one thing, Once i stay alone, I just wanna be alone cause Im tired and scared of failing. Its all about the strength, Its all about the confidence..

I have to hold on, but I cant hold on for too long, My energy will be drained soon. Many things are in my brain right now? Yet, The biggest fear im having is my Olevels. Its tomorrow. Came by a problem early in the morning. I won't mention what the problem is, but I just wont think about it. None decides my life, None interfere in my life affairs. You try to coax me, but instead I will bite you further..

You have faith in me, There will be no trouble. How far I can go, Its my life issue. Whoever you are, I will not bother, once you are in my way, watch out.. Dont disturb me.

Still By Myself..!, Wednesday, October 20, 2010.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

Kay,this blog is dying. Better update it. Schedules are hectic. Olevels is in 10 days time. I miss riding, ii miss doing my normal stuffs,i miss ecp, ii practically miss many things.

BUT IN FEW WEEKS TIME, I'M FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

*Uh-huh uh-huh*

I wanna get it done and over with.

Anw, i was studying at the void deck and I MADE A FRIEND. An indian man approached me and asked if the seat was taken. Idk what's his name. So let's give him a name - RAJOO. Okay, I said no and Rajoo sat opposite me. At first, he was annoying. He was noisy, talking loudly on the phone. Then he asked me the meaning of bombastic words. I was a lil bit PISSED OFF. Here i am,studying. And there you are, distracting me. He watched me do my work, ii was stucked, he took a look and gave me many plain papers to write. How thoughtful(:

2 guys, on a seat, having problems, wanna relax their mind, become friends.

COOL SIAA. mcm drama series.

Conclusion: He's a nice guy.

I'm very hungry. Mum cooked sambal chicken,but i'm very lazy to lift my lazy butt off the chair. Malas nk amik lauk, nk bkak mulot, nk kunyah,nk telan. Leceh. After all, dah mlm. Tido sudah.

Label: Everything happened for

a reason. Things have not

been great these few wks,

but I won't let you fall.

I'll support you from

the back.

I love you,Eddy Shaiful.

Still By Myself..!, Thursday, October 14, 2010.

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Its been a very LONG time since I update my blog. Getting pretty old aren't you? Hmm. Well, ever since the last day I've update which is in May I assumed, this blog there are no tags at all. So well lets just Summate what happened all this while

School been thorough.. Been ending lately, been on tight discipline. Gahh well the new principal make lives difficult for us. This and that, Do and dont. Idiot. Recently got Malay Olevel result. Been a good one. Nomore thinking of malay.. Now left with five subject. I will do my best, run through the school quickly and done..

Syaza:
A pusher, A supporter, a helper. She helped me alot. Thanks to her. I Love Her :)

Family:
Been a rush hectic these days due to Raya's coming up. With many homework I have (not even one touched) I still helped them. Helped bro deliver The Kuihs. Help elder sis with her children. Help young sis with her probs. Help myself with help. HAHA!

Thats all for now...Summated.. :)

Still By Myself..!, Wednesday, September 08, 2010.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

This picture Tells you people of how I drive my pain away ; by my bmx..

Hilang aku hilang. Mendengar, melihat dan merasai... Aku terpaku, aku gamam kekeliruan. Tersentak sejenak dan benak fikiran ku terhenti. Tidak merasakan sembarang perasaan. Aku hendak melangkah pergi. Namun aku pasti ini bukan jalan yang terbaik. Tidak setanding dengan apa yang DIA ada. Aku rasa bagaikan dunia, gelap buat seketika. Masa lalu yang kini dipandang sebagai kenangan, menjadi pengubat rindu. Aku tenggelam. Aku lemas... Bagaikan sesebuah drama berputar di mataku. Aku tidak tahu siapakah mereka. Yang aku tahu hanyalah mereka pernah bersama. Aku tidak pasti, namun aku mengerti. Lantas aku berpegang pada janji, yang telah aku janjikan untuk menjagamu. Namun apabila cerita atau kisah lama timbul semula dan berlegar di mataku, aku sedih. Kecewa tak terkata. Sebak juga di dada. AKU, kaku... AKu tidak tahu bagaimana harusku membimbingmu sedangkan kisahmu lebih mulia dan keras daripada apa yang aku lalui.. Ternyata, kerana Nila Setitik, Rosak Susu Sebelangah..

Akan ku jadikan semua yang terjadi terhadap dirimu dahulu, sebagai pengajaran perjalanan hidup kau dan aku. Dan tidak lupa aku untuk membimbingmu. Tanpa kamu aku keliru.

Eddy Saadon.

Still By Myself..!, Saturday, July 03, 2010.

Friday, May 28, 2010

That picture above illustrates a story. Every dream you wish is visible. Achievable if you believe. Yet For mine, "you" are like the light or sun, that I couldn't reach. How I wish, I could reach for you. You presence brought a lot of memories and hopes for me. Your presence made me came back to what I used to be. A guy who is responsible. I never want to see you cry, frown, or even feeling sad. Reminiscing your past, made you swell. I want YOU(S_ _ _ _ A _ _ _ _ _ _ ) to be stronger. Don't worry about me. I will still be here :)

Labels: Believeable issues

Still By Myself..!, Friday, May 28, 2010.

Monday, May 24, 2010

This picture above is the first proper meeting we had. This picture illustrates meanings behind it. The first time we met, we were like strangers towards each other.. The journey that we faced was indeed massive. Now everything is clearly stated And we reached the goal. I reached mine, You've reached yours :)

Sunday was a bloody day. It started out bad for me, with headache since morning. Followed by quarreling with dear and it lasted the whole day. After one came one. I pranked her and it went wrong sumhow. I nearly shatter her heart while she needs comfort. I would summarise it and say, I broke her heart today. Her Ex called her up and she said smtg which broke my heart. I cried and I realised I love her so much. I didnt want to loose her. Then 11.36pm came by and changed everything. The THREE WORDS that I've been waiting to hear sneaked into my ears, and pierce thru my broken heart, and mended it back. The cry I had changed to tears of joy. It was heart throbbing moment. I thought I was dreaming, yet it is real. You managed to clear your doubts and confusion. Now, LET GET MOVING!!! :)

I LOVE YOU SYAZA AMALINA

Still By Myself..!, Monday, May 24, 2010.