Thursday, November 29, 2007
Mood : Bored
Currently now, I'm running out of ideas on what to do.
I don't know what else to do.. I want go Swimming,
but who the hell wants to accompany me??
I've been playing game all the way today, but i just
take abt an 1-2 break from playing game. If nt i
will glue myself to the comp. I Dunno now on what
to do and i will start to think of things that is bad, or
worrying me, like wat will my life be in future, will i
get this person. wat will happen to this person then
and blablabla.
I sumtimes regret that i break ppl heart, make them
feel irritated. I really want to be with them, i dun care
if they want to be normal frens with me. I will do
watever to change my life and be sumone more mature
in thinking. I want to start back and cover up all my
religious session that i missed 5 to 7 years ago.
My aim is to pray back and the time to pray back
is just abt a mths left. If i dun learn hw to pray by
2008, it means im a useless guy. I cant even do a
simple thing for my religious.
I regret on wat happen in my past but ppl say dun
regret cos it will drag us to disappointment in future.
So move on........
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I feel really fragile.
If i fall i cant stand back.
I wonder what is my aim.
I noe i cant get her.
And i noe the feelings with
Fia is already diff.
I want to be with Fia but
this feeling is dragging me.
FIA PLS HELP ME!!!!
Labels: Im Confuse. Close Call...
Still By Myself..!, Thursday, November 29, 2007.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Moraley....!!! Woah. Training in the rain.
Like hella. HAHA. I nearly skidded and
fall at parade square. HAHA.
Hmm. We train and train and train till
it rain. We laugh and laugh and laugh
till we faint. Since i got the new shoes,
its tight btw. WRONG SIZE!! I played
worst than ever today. Cos the shoes
was like so tight.
Hmm. We see, maybe gettin a new one.
So rich ah me, just bought then want a
new pair.
So i saw the CC gerls. She didnt tie her
hair and she look like a chinese from the
back.
I dun care of them and continue playing
but smtg seems distracting me. But i dunno
wat it is..
NEmind. I got ntg to do now. Im alone. No
more partner. Hmm. Wonder why.
Nemind we die harder and fight alone..
Thats all. Im lazy to blog cos ntg happen
today. Just that i went to takraw.
Bye2.
Labels: Get it right aim it well and u get it. :)
Still By Myself..!, Wednesday, November 28, 2007.
Sunday, November 25, 2007
Yeah i got new pairs of shoes.
For Sepak Takraw. Of course.!
Its freaking lite, freaking white
freaking big.
OK. Today ntg happen. Its just
that my bicycle cable got snapped.
Nemind will get it change.
Just move on today, tmr and
so on..
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I wont take anyone.
I want to study.
Nt giving up.
But just want to see
both side happy. :)
Labels: Feeling High
Still By Myself..!, Sunday, November 25, 2007.
Saturday, November 24, 2007
currently now haywire. i cant tink.
trouble now. thats why, never play
with matchsticks if u dunno hw to
handle it.
Just cos of a small thing turns up a
big fire which kills many particles of
fresh air.
I just wait and see the future. thats all.
Eddy.
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That small doll is giving me trouble
feelings came back and attacks me.
Nw im losing on the side i love.
Too bad just die.
I will release my anger in court game
Sepak Takraw. Let the ppl head burst.
ARGH!!!!!
Still By Myself..!, Saturday, November 24, 2007.
Friday, November 23, 2007
Im currently thinking of wat my fate
is going to be in future. Wats up with
me today. I changed abit, got angry
easily, got jealous, and feeling scared
while im angry..
Who am i today. I like her again by all
of sudden. Stoopid of me to like her again.
Yet i guess she is aiming of sumtink while
the other side is disappointed plus sad.
My emotion is like rojak. Im getting jealous,
but im scared but im also angry. I feel like
running off to other countries so that i can
relax. Even if i die it will make sumone cry.
So dying is nt a good solution so guys nvr
commit suicide when having probs.
Back to me. Wat the hell with me. Im no
one to her and she is no one to me and
im a dumb guy to get jealous just bcos
of smtg. Tuhan bantu aku ya tuhan.
Ku sujud dan mohon petunjukmu..
AMIN.
Currently confuse of who i like. If i fail
to achieve wat i want, maybe it will be
over for me to like gerls. If i get wat i want, maybe
treating her is my second impt thing.
To make her happy is part of it. But i
guess my hope is like crashing down
fast. No chance for me. Always a no.
Help me, im confuse and feel like faiting
now. U tellin me im telling lies, up to u.
U wont help me sort things out. And u
still say i change. K, nvm, time to end.
But i will be frens with u. Get that straight.
Labels: Dun go to other guy, im wishing to have u....
Still By Myself..!, Friday, November 23, 2007.
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Currently its already night.
Im nt sleepy. Still thinking
of my old stories. Wondering
why i adore her, why i irritate
her. And why did make her angry?
Wonder why she is always playing
in my mind. Although last time i
accidentally put her name inside blog.
I wonder why that all happen. One
thing my aim is to tackle her heart.
But in the end, giving up was the only
option for me. Hmm. My aim to just
adore her till she give me a reply. But
I cant put hopes too high. And i cant see
them crashing down and break like a
glass. I wonder why i still dare to chat
with her while i noe she hates me. I wonder
why i still have the courage to talk to
her. Am i a wall with no faces? Or am i
dumb??
Why shd i care abt u. Why shd i like u
although sumone else is beside me.
U are nt that special. But its ur attitude,
ur style, and easy to say, the way u are
attracts me. I cant believe i adore or like
u so much. But now i given up and went
for sumone else. I regret leaving my aim
behind. I hope that u will be mine in future.
I dunno wat it will be but praying is just
the main thing that is available and can be
done to have the things we want in future.
FYI, i still like u like last time i did. But just
a slight mistake done by me affects everything.
Now i lose my aim, concentration gone. No
energy to move on. Why is there in earth call
give up? Hmm but i cant regret. It already
happened.. :( :(
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Feelings:
Although she is my bestfren,
but u is in my mind. Ur cuteness
Ur smile and ur laugh.
Ur specs make me remind of u.
Ur bag makes me remember the
appearance of u. And ur shoes makes
me remember ur style of walking.
And even ur hair can make me recognise u.
So no matter hw u hate me, hw u ignore me,
hw u avoid me, i still like u although im with
sumone else. U noe who u are gerl.
TC :'(
Labels: U make me feel that im alive.
Still By Myself..!, Thursday, November 22, 2007.
Monday, November 19, 2007
HAHA. Today's very boring.
I want to go out. Aiya must ngaji
liaw.
Hmm. Never been online for long time.
Comp down. Now ok. I wanting to go
to Nanyang Sepak Takraw Training
Centre. Thats where evils are.
Evils playing Sepak Takraw.
Neh..
Just pray i could go tmr.
Thatss all ..
Im missing frens badly. :P
U were once my admire.
U were once my strength.
But now No more... :(
Still By Myself..!, Monday, November 19, 2007.
Thursday, November 8, 2007
Let Me make clear. I wont be Blogging And chatting for
Abt few week. Comp make alot of prob and need to be
reformat. So Just to ensure u ppl that im nt updating my
blog for maybe a long time. After the comp is ready then
i will update again.:)
So Today i didnt go out. Didnt do anything BUT just sleeping.
SO notink to blog abt.
But I wont leave suf although we can be together.
I wont forget her.
She is special to me.
So my solution is just meet her at sch.
My family have been so strict till that even having
Special fren wont be allowed. Thus i sumtimes
go against the rule. But tis time round its worst.
Freedom will be gone, Must be back at exact time. Shit
Who wants to be controlled. So nevermine. Me and suf
will go on but as best bud cos if our profile is too high
then my freedom might be in danger.
Nemind i will pray that ntg will happen.
To u luqman, take care, releks. And ntg will happen.
chill bro.
Thats all. See ya ppl ard. Especially unity students. :)
Still By Myself..!, Thursday, November 08, 2007.
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
Yeah met SUFIA today!
Woo. So i woke up late.
Suppose to leave hse at 9.20
but instead i woke up at 9.15.
Crazy sia me. So then smsed
sufia saying that i will be late.
So just meet at Yew Tee.
So as i reached she just reached too.
So we walk to school in the rain. And
Walk with farah and fizah too.
They are real laughing ppl. Abt small
thing also can larf.
So reached sch and check result
But before that saw afif. His face
was as bad as belacan but i noe he
got wat he want. He is in same class
as me. Taking Bio/chem and POA.
Me, Safiee, Afif will be in same class.
Hisham,Hilmi, Rusydi will be in 3/3.
So we see ard next year frens.
Hmm. Hope we are never seperated.
I was kinda happy when i saw mine.
HAHA! Furthermore got to see Sufia.
She is cute though. HAHA. But i guess
we may have to end. I hope not.
We hope for the best together yeah??
Hmm. Thats all for today.
Seeya ard ppl :)
Still By Myself..!, Tuesday, November 06, 2007.
WEE! today is bored but great. HAHA FUNZY!
Morning wake up. But stoopid wake up i asked
for food. My weight is gaining. My stomach is like
getting bigger. I eat eggs, meat alot. And exercise!
So at 10 took my bathe and back to comp. AT 1.30
went out to takraw.
I miss her man. Tmr meeting her. AT marsiling.
HEHE.
Thats all.
Byeee
Still By Myself..!, Monday, November 05, 2007.
Saturday, November 3, 2007
YAW WE HIT TOWN!!!
Yeah me, apit, nabilah and efa went to town today.
FAR EAST PLAZA WAS OUR DESTINATION.
Just to watch dance competition. Hip hop dance.
Hmm cool. Lots of pretty gerls but nt interested in any.
i got one. SUF!
and i even met
unexpected person.
So.. Set out at 11 and reach Far East at abt 12.
So apit bought jerseys or sumtink. At $29 for two.
We took neoprints. Photos like nobody business.
Eat. Walk. Drink and walk.
We saw good cars. Good people.
Afif and Efa is the most best person.
They are positive and can say more mature
in thinking.
Hmm. We even went to TAKASHIMAYA.
Big people place. I mean rich ppl place.
Where English ppl or tourist are there.
Hmm. Today is in history. We will go out another
day.
Abt photo. Dun even think im going to upload here.
Go to my frenster and view it. Thats all for today.
Eddy
Labels: They Are Good.
Still By Myself..!, Saturday, November 03, 2007.
Thursday, November 1, 2007
Day by day, i feel that im giving her problem.
Day by day, i feel that she is irritated.
I didnt noe it turn out to be like tis.
One thing that i can say is that :
I REGRET SCOLDING AND SHOUTING AT HER.
I once told myself nt to be angry towards
her. But why today ruins it all.
Why becos of a slight or small mistake
change every single things.
I guess i shd not blog abt her ytd.
It was my mistakes. I never blame anyone.
Wat i do always sincere to u.
I dun care wat i am or who i are
but one thing is never to make u angry.
Today was the biggest mistake i did
to her. I didnt realise that a sentence
can change everything.
I cried cos i make her confuse.
I cried cos she was angry.
I cried cos she didnt want to
talk to me.
I hope u change ur mind in future.
To suf, i noe wat i can do.
give me time to explain abt us.
Cos i think i can go against
my bro for u. I dun care
what ppl say.
Feelings:
I cant concentrate.
She is angry now.
Im sori.
I dunno wat else shd i
say.
Im sori.
Forgive me.
Im nt that mature yet.
Cos im still playful.
Im sori.
Im sincere.
:'(
Labels: I cried cos i hurt ur feelings.
Still By Myself..!, Thursday, November 01, 2007.
WAT IS TIS... WAT ARE U ALL TRYING TO TELL. I TOLD NO LIES.
IT WAS THE TRUTH. ARE U PPL MAD OR SMTG. EXPLAIN LAH.
BUAT BERTENANG. BEBUAL BAEK2. DUN MAKE PPL CONFUSE.
I DUN UNDERSTAND WAT U ARE SAYING THEN TIBE2 MALAS?
WAT NONSENSE U ARE TALKING. WAT CONSEQUENCES? WAT
ABT WAT.. COME GUYS. BE TRUE. BE TRUE.......!!!
FEELINGS
MIND IS SPINNING
THINKING OF WAT IT IS
U TINK WAT IM A PLAYBOY
SORI! FOR UR INFO I STICK
TO HER OK! I GUESS U ARE
TOO BORED AND STARTED
SAYING THINGS WITHOUT
EXPLAINATION. WHICH
PART DID IT WENT WRONG????
Still By Myself..!, Thursday, November 01, 2007.
NAME : MUHAMMAD EDDY SHAIFUL
NAME : MUHAMMAD EDDY SHAIFUL
