Wednesday, November 19, 2008

I wanted to sleep but my eyes just wont close and let my body have a rest for the night. I was thinking about something all the way this past few days. Im kinda optimistic. But sometimes i need to voice out my feelings too. I guess u readers wanna know what im thinking about and this is the time and im gonna share wit u all.

All this days that has passed, have become a history. The future is a mistery. All i want is a good outcome for my life. But in the middle of the journey to have a good outcome, I will have problems and break down, and started to reflect where it went wrong. Truly saying it ferst started at the TIT BITS food stall in school. Thats was my first view of her. WE started to know each other better after that day.. WE sms-ed, we call, we chat and even went out. I still remember well, theres one day i followed her to Popular, to get her Geography Elective textbook. The scene at the counter is well remembered. She was suppose to pass the money to the counter attendant and both her hands was full of stuff, her specs and her bag was in her hands. WE laughed together and i lay my hand to help her.. We also go to school together..

But after a silly mistake, we got dragged from each other away. Day by day, the feel of love is slowly disappearing, rising of hatred. I started to ignore her, letting her walk her line on her own. Leaving her in danger that she is nt prone to. Telling nonsense excuses. But then, we just got separated with no reasons... Not a single reason that could explain why we got separated.

But now, ive made up my mind. That if i could rewind time and get all those precious memories again, i would make good use of the second chance, and love her as much as i could and walk the line with her again, supporting her from the back, be there when she needs someone.. I've tried finding a substitute of her, but seriously, nobody replace her. I envy someone for being so damn close to her. Yeah that is me, I get jealous easily. But, i told myself i am strong, to stand up again on my feet and see the ahead of me. I Will LEt other people be with her. I will LEt other people make her smile because i know i have disappointed her many times. And i would rather see her smile and laugh rather than seeing her cry and moody at all times.. I hope to see u happy again... My entry ends here.. One Name... _________ ?????

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Still By Myself..!, Wednesday, November 19, 2008.