Sunday, March 29, 2009

Hey.. A guest asked me to post, but then, its not heart breaking.. Now back to normall..
sorry yeah.. Last few days, been slacking at home. Seriously i have no mood to ride..
dont even have the mood to study for my coming mid year exams. OUH GOD! I'm
taking NLEVEL but yet im still slacking..

This cant possibly be happening... Its bad, i kept procrastinating.. And i delay every
single plan that i've planned.. Sad case, i dont even wanna touch the book. However it is, im going
to do it so soon. :) thats. all..

My aim is to immobilize every single enemy that comes in my way ;P

Still By Myself..!, Sunday, March 29, 2009.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Some matters was bothering me.. It made my mood turned off..
I was thinking too much. Yeah, i would say i miss you.. But then
would you miss me? Sadly, looks like no reply from you..
A change of feelings happened...

In school, during maths i fell asleep. Was thinking too much
of my personal feelings that it made me bored... Today while
riding, I did not land my tricks properly. I was doomed by
mixed feelings when i reached foodlion. I remembered that
i saw you with your mum couple of days back....

I dont know what i was thinking that i fell most of the time
i did my tricks.. I dont know what to say... I saw your face,
in a crowded place, and i dunno what to do, cause i'll never
be with you..

What else can i hope for? But im not going to give you up..
I will still wait, and wait... Like my fren said, it takes time
for her to trust and understand you. So I must understand
and respect her in order for her to trust and understand...

Still By Myself..!, Wednesday, March 25, 2009.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

An emergency alarm went off in me.. Now i felt abit pressuring with exams coming..
Im getting a bit alarmed with the time.. I saw how pressuring the 4E was.. So now,
i needa race against time..

Shd i say, time to put other probs one side, and concentrate hard on studies...
But then, there are some things which i need to bother about.. So, time to
balance it...

Take care..

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I dont know what else should i do. But then, i will put it away..
I dont know what you feel, what feelings u have, but then,
i will nt take it into consideration... Nt give up, but there are
some serious matters i need to face... take care...

Still By Myself..!, Tuesday, March 24, 2009.

Monday, March 23, 2009

Mind me, I was sweating after riding bike with this girl. Readers, Don't think wildly ah, This is Rahayu, a bmx rider. Just a friend of mine. Not more ah. I got many things to say about her.

She is like a propaganda(influencing). It has come to my atttention that, whatever trick she is trying, it inspired me to learn more. Guess what, she can do tricks which i couldn't at skatepark. So just now we went to B3, for some reasons of course. There is some youth manager coming, to talk about some matters.. Nas and Willie tagged along too..

So then we reached B3, about 6.50. Then as soon as me and the rest settle down, the managers came. As usual, B3 is always crowded, and B3 is better looking with the Pro riders around, Like Uncle John, Alex, Han, Blueboy, Dom and many more. So its a little hard for me to play(newbie). So then, nearly everyone went to hear what the manager was talking. So i shifted and started using the ramps and learn the basics. And here came ayu, down the ramp, she launched a 180 out??!!

Oh my god, I was a bit ashamed that a lady could do it, why cant me. So she inspired me. You see, every tricks she attempts, makes me feel tempted and want to do it. So in any way, she inspired me to land tricks fast. And not only that, she is where, sometimes i share my probs too.. :D You see, we might not be close to someone, but then they understand us better. So, therefore, Rahayu is the friend of the month. :D hehe. TAke care fren :)* CArtoon don't angry ah I take pic with AYu. :P

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I wasn't sure what or who tagged my board. Whether its her or

not, i needa reassure.. this is so not true, even if its true, i want to

hear from her mouth.. Could be someone sabotaging. :P

Still By Myself..!, Monday, March 23, 2009.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Today, is a gift. Yesterday is a history. Tomorrow is a mystery. I had fun. Dad and me nearly killed a malaysia rider. I don't know what is his intention. From traffic light, he's been flauting. Like as if he was riding an exotic motorbike. Even my brother not like that. So he's actually flauting at van, which there is a cute lady. But then the rider paisey, the van went straight and the rider turned right towards expressway(KJE). Thats the direction we went.

Then he flaunt at us. What else, Dad turned siow, he engaged first gear, and dragged the rpm till the exhaust pipe blast. Luckily our car is a tough one. Cause dad mod the car.. So then the bike actually get to escape. But then dad chased him, till entering BKE. Then we nearly killed him. He was at the most left lane, dad from the most right, shift in and made him stuck by the side road. Dad slam down to the power gear, and disappear. He chased us and tail us, this part we nearly killed him again, he was tailgating us too near, dad purposely hit the brakes hard, even me was thrown a little. The bike isnt scared, still tailgate us, so he tried to swerve out, dad blocked him. He was heading toward Woodlands checkpoint while we were heading towards punggol. So we blocked him, took another route...

Funny part was, he was looking for us. By the time he realised, we already exit-ed the expressway, taking another one. So he switched on his signal light and looked at us. I was laughing and said, "he is playing with a car which is alright. Imagine he is playing with a SuperSportBike (SSB). For sure he is a dead meat, fried till black". Sister laughed.
In conclusion, don't test others patience, it might end us up crawling.. :P

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This song i found during slacking just now. Not found, but i remembered about it.
I've uploaded it here. Changed it. Now i gonna post the lyrics. Its meaningful to me
though :) Happy listening..

><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><><>< "Unintended"
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I 'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

Before you

Still By Myself..!, Sunday, March 22, 2009.

Friday, March 20, 2009

The picture says it all. I'm in dilemma, stress and full of question mark in my head. If this time round, "love" fails, I don't know what to do. I don't know what I'm expecting, but I'm expecting something.. I still hope for _______ answer. But definitely, if love fails I'm going to ignore love. I'm trying my very best for it, but I'm always afraid to lose it. I really hoped this will work out. And whatever it is, I'm always sincere.

Still By Myself..!, Friday, March 20, 2009.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

My New AirMax

Me And Afif(Boi Kecoh*haha*)

Me and Safiee(Terminator :P)

Alright. I got loads to tell about our CLASS CHALET with Mdm Khamilia and MDM ASMIDAH(favourite poa teacher :P) Met up early at Yew Tee. Suppose to meet the rest at 2.45 but I met Safiee and Afif earlier at two. Bought some stuff for chalet, and waited for the rest. At 3, we went off. Sean and colony missed the train we boarded. So waited for them at Jurong East.

Set off when they reached 3mins later.. Then we cause hazard in MRT i guess. With our stuffs and big bags.. So 45mins later reached Pasir Ris. Worst, We about 17 people wasn't so sure on taking bus or cab. So i decided to take cab to Aloha Loyang Chalet. REached there, suddenly got excited. Shodiqin was so confident on lighting up the BBQ pit. In the end, he left it, and me, afif and Zul have to attend it. Its like he took half an hour to light it up while me and the other two took 10mins to light it up..

By 7 started barbecue, Bing Shu came. We ate and all. Was so messy. All of sudden the boys room got locked. So weird. Lucky Mdm Khamilia came back on time. *JUMP*

So by night time, some were sleeping, most were playing games or chatting. I was doing nearly everything, chatting, barbecuing, gaming, sleeping, slacking. HAHa. Had little chit chat session with Syifa. And took some pictures with my classmates. Then played True Or Dare game. And i tell you, its the same routine till morning...

So then, checked out at 8.30. Mdm Khamilia sent me afif and safiee and Shi lei to pasir ris mrt station. So we went to eat at banquet signature. So weird, they give us a number to wait for our turn to collect our food. Its like at the clinic :P

Ate, and nearly fell asleep there. Cause the whole night i didnt slept. But then, otw back home inside train, I didnt get a seat, I stood. Nearly fell down, cause i accidentally fell asleep.. haha..

Safiee left at City Hall. Then reached home, changed straight away slept again.

Then at 2 woke up, changed go riding at B3. I tell you. It shiok going high... :)

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I was hoping an answer. Since you didn't have any. I can't force

you to give one. Maybe You aren't ready. I respect you.. Take care

ok. And during chalet, I thought of none but only You. Luckily you

called back. At least I get to hear your voice :) Take care. Love ya :)

Still By Myself..!, Thursday, March 19, 2009.

Monday, March 16, 2009

Today went to school. Before that, planned to send someone to her tuition first. Then go to school and at 11.30 meet her back. I promised to treat her eat. So fetched her, went to LOT ONE and ate at long john. I hope you are full.. Then asked her to follow me to Popular to find my ink. But then i didnt found any..

Then she wanted to go back and change, so i said ok. In mid way down to level one, she asked me about the question.. So i said i want to treat her as my stead. Im sincere and true.. So i asked her back, but then she wasnt so sure.. So sent her home. Reached her area, alighted. Then rain, she told me to go first but then i went.. So i went, and she walked faster than me? aha...

Then went riding. Some things happened, i dont want to mention it here.. It really strikes me damn hard... Nevermind.. I end here...

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I'm sincere. No forcing.. Take your time :)

Still By Myself..!, Monday, March 16, 2009.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Well I just woke up. I was awaken by a dream, which destroy me.. I don't know what is it, its just that i loose something in my dream and its gone. Prolly my most precious ones? I'm not sure either.. Take Care people. I have to go to work now :)

~toodleesss~

Still By Myself..!, Sunday, March 15, 2009.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

This was what Syahied, Nas and Me did when we were bored waiting for Amirul to come. We was playing 180 then suddenly Nas sat down. Then Syahied..

All of sudden the idea to do, this came across my mind after I spoke the sentence spoke by MONKEY DELAROSA "Freestyle Is Anyhow"

I sat down on my bar, destroying the stickers, and did this. A lot was looking at us as if we don't know how to ride bicycle. Then played this for like an hour then suddenly amirul came. We continued..

All of sudden I went back to normal riding position, having the feelings and damn confident to do footjam whip, the PROPER way. As in jump, whip then jam.. Oh my god, I didn't believe i can jam my foot after whipping. The bike swing and my left leg dropped -__-

Damn it, my favourite trick now. I want to land it, I'm desperate to land it cause I managed to do the proper way. Not like get ready the leg on the front tire, jam then whip. I did this way, Jump then whip to jam. So now im crazy over this trick. Not crazy on 360 anymore or floater or rockwalk.. Come on, teach me man.. I want to land this trick :D.. For your info, I'm not boasting. I was just excited and hyper... hehe...

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If you are reading this, Please make time to

meet me for awhile... If can lah, No forcing though.

I guess i want to give you something also...

If you are free only ok. No forcing.. Maybe

monday ok. Can?

Labels: Concern For You..

Still By Myself..!, Saturday, March 14, 2009.

Yeah, Holidays are here. Not really holidays but a week of break from school. Definitely I'm going to chill for the week. Not chill as in totally slack. Going to do some revisions of course. Today, we got back our CA1 result slips. Good that there is no underline except for maths TEST 1 which i failed by 2 marks. PATHETIC SIA! So far its damn good. I love to see A1 for my POA
but I hate to see my malay dropped to b3!

Darn thats no good.. I have to buck up. So today planned not to turn up for AEP, but something was telling me to go. Even someone told me to go. I listened to her definitely and I turned up. I feel kinda bad cause I went while the rest didn't go. Its like u bustard them right. But then i guess its for my own good.

So then went home. I went to foodlion or a.k.a 288. I saw Jerome and some of them. They told me to ride but I was too lazy. Shagged. Too exhausted. Ouh yah i learnt new word. Kinda like to use it , PROPAGATED = Influenced. So I went back home, and thought of going down as its friday and its FNR = friday night ride. But i need to know how to limit myself. NLEVEL, OLEVEL and POLY. Thats my aim. Tomorrow will be out. Not at home. And tomorrow I want to go cut my BMX brake housing cable. So then.. Hope i can play park and learn something..

Sunday:
Work

Monday:
School/study

Tuesday:
Home/ Ride

Wednesday:
CLASS CHALET/ WHACK SHODIQIN

Thursday:
Home/study

Friday:
PRayers/Home/Studies

The WEEKENDS:
Pack Up../study

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I hope you settle your problems fast. If you need
help, i'm here. Just take care of yourself and don't
get into trouble. And I need to meet you soon, I want
to say something to you :) Take care..

Still By Myself..!, Saturday, March 14, 2009.

Friday, March 13, 2009

I just don't know what to say. What i could say is, I hope you understand my feelings and i want you to be mine :). Take care..

Still By Myself..!, Friday, March 13, 2009.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Early in the morning I woke up. And woke up late. Lucky dad wants to send me to skewl.
Not to skewl but to mrt station. So called it save my walking distance.. Luckily reached skewl
way earlier than on time. So skewl today was bored. All of sudden. Cos, whole day my head was spinning.. I don't know why. Maybe because of perfume.

So today AEP was short. Just filling. Then went home. Slept. Woke up at 4. Bathed, ate then went out to fetch ___. Fetched her then went home...

I got lost at yew tee.. Don't know the block.. Its like mixed up.I found it at last. WAited under the block.. about 5mins.. Then she appeared. walked with her.. to mrt.. then walk home.. Sorry if my hand hit your hand a couple of time.. hehe..nice to walk with you. Hope to meet you again.. bye...

Still By Myself..!, Thursday, March 12, 2009.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Today was a blast.. There is a new teacher for POA. For me, teacher is always a teacher... No gatal-ing eventhough she have look or wat.. It was funny though to see Bing Shu reaction and some other classmate reaction. HEHE.. Had photo taking today. And still i could say 4/2 ROCKS!

My hope just now was to take picture with my teachers, Mdm Asmidah and Mdm Khamilia. Indeed my wish was granted. HEHE! So took pictures and stuff went back for maths. Disaster.
Most boys played game.. haha. ran away from class, before teacher came in, tried to act cool like nothing happened, but then was caught.. HAHA!

So after skewl AEP straight away. WEnt home.. Otw home, SAfiee said he wanted to eat. Suddenly he said, he treating me and afif Long John at Yew Tee Point. Hell yeah its big. So, went to eat, it was the first time somebody treated me.. hehe.. Thanks bro...

Went home then fixed my MTB and ride.. Accidentally land a complete 360. Nobody saw it. Lucky. I guess that, i wanna start playing park.. Im traumatised by the incident that happened at foodlion.. Tc readers..

Still By Myself..!, Wednesday, March 11, 2009.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

This is the second post. Chatting with Anna currently. I just came back from LOT one. I took my mtb tires back from Budiman. Thanks Budiman. So then i cycled at the back of lot one. The one that connects to mrt. There is a lot of matrep. They all were eyeing on me. I could feel that eyes are on me. So i just cycle and sumhow made my hub of my bike nosier but cycling backwards..

So then reach home, i ate and online. And she all of sudden start convo. Was shock.. To tell you, I want to know what you feel. If you are gonna tell though.. Thats all. And i care for u. Love ya..

Still By Myself..!, Tuesday, March 10, 2009.

Today was a hip for me. I met RAIHAN. Long time never see him and ride with him.. He came with an MTB. I was rather shocked to see him with that. So we ride on, and on. Then Han and Dom head off to B3. Then left me, him and nas. We went to Lam Soon and ride.

He guided me on 360 flat. But im not into it. Im into rockwalk. He told me do this do that.
Then the fun begins. I tried and tried.. Then Amirul came. Nas told me, if i was to land it, it be good. Suddenly, I land it. So i went faster and better!! So kept doing it. And never stop doing it..

And today a fight broke off again. Lloyd like what sia, people talking with fren, then interfere. Then find trouble want fight. I pulled him off, and telling him to go off. IDIOT. Want create another trouble is it..

So then elf was there. Trully saying i was happy to see her.. But then.. I just act as if nothing happened.

AND i get to chat with anna.. DAYUM!! haha. i miss ya.. :)

Still By Myself..!, Tuesday, March 10, 2009.

Monday, March 9, 2009

Today, the whole day my phone didnt rang. I was worried about her whereby. Whether she
go skewl or not. I was abit restless.. I hope she would ring my fone.. Sms me soon ok. Im worry..

Still By Myself..!, Monday, March 09, 2009.

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Today I'm really traumatised. Foodlion is nomore safe. NOTE THAT. Today was abit different.
Suddenly MTB and BMX riders gather together and ride. To most shocking Faroz was there too..
So we was riding around foodlion, some play manual, some did 180 and some did 360 and etc.

And then the trouble came. Suddenly we heard this shouting from a block nearby. A guy came asked we all," you all where one?!" So we said we are riders only. Suddenly another guy came by, and picked one rider and took out a T-Baton. He was so good at handling it that none of us
realised that the baton became long. There was an extension.. He spin2 that thing and suddenly
my fren got whacked. It was so fast that suddenly my leg brought me somewhere far. Two of riders was involved. Luckily one of them didnt got injured. Ambulance and police deployed.
Took statement and i left. I swear That i have to be wise in my words...

Tc people. Earth is vulnerable to threat..

Still By Myself..!, Sunday, March 08, 2009.

Alright. Today I spent most of my time riding. Ok as i said, my life could be boring
but what to do. I got nothing else to do. I'm not used to going around and travel
around singapore. I myself don't know why.. Today i met someone whom i've been
longing to meet.. I didnt expect she is so cute and sweet and kinda tall..

It was about an hour chat. Then i told her she needa go back before 7pm as i always
thought girls must always be home before 7. Its kinda religious things.. So then met up
and she was way different from her pictures i saw. She owns a sweet smile, and her
eyes are mesmerizing. hehe... Great to know you girl..

After meeting her, i feel a change in life. I learnt that i'm not suppose to say i'm a boring
person whom everyday job is just riding. Seriously i needa chill out too. Hang around with
different types of people.. So then me and her chat-ed about our daily life routine, our
families and stuff.. Seriously, the way she are doesn't made me feel awkward, while some
people, the way they react and speak made me feel uncomfortable..

She's unique in the way she present herself. AT my first sight of thought, I thought she's
minah2 type. I dont really know if that is true. But what i could see is that, she's the same as
other gerls that i usually meet in schools or etc. The uniqueness is only that how the way
she present herself to others..Oh no.. Why am i talking about you.. HOPE TO MEET YOU AGAIn.

But then i went back to riding. As pernormal i wanted to do 180. But all of sudden i over whack and i landed 270. I was relatively shocked and stunned. So i tried again and i feel how difficult to whack a 360 on air.. Then i realised mine is not a real 360. Its i carved 90degrees and i whack another 180. So it became 270. hehe. Thats all. Tomorrow i wont ride due to my frenly match at Clementi at 3pm. See ya readers :)

Labels: I Met Her...

Still By Myself..!, Sunday, March 08, 2009.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Today something bad happen.. Not bad but stupid. Just because of results and wrong answer,
a fight broke off. Haha. Whatever lah girl. Grow up Keep saying but no action for what.. Call
her gang but the gang didnt help a thing.

Like what others said, just ignore will settle the thing.. So I approached her as she was talking crap about me behind my back.. So i approach her nicely but firmly. She suddenly shout like aunty. Then funny is that she gave me stupid reasons and talk cock.. Whatever it is, i dun fight,
i quarrel but i dun fight and i dun slap or beat gerls. I got no right to do that..

So had history test, was quite ok.. Then went home and went riding. I feel stranded. Or like an extra u see when __ appear. I dunno why but u changed the way i ride. I mean that i cant ride in peace if u was there. or ride together cos i guess, its not right.

Thats alll.

To anna:
harap2 jmpe lah ehk.. haha. stay cute..

Still By Myself..!, Tuesday, March 03, 2009.

Sunday, March 1, 2009

1st of March. Without realising we are in the third month of year 2009.
You see how fast time flies.. I just felt like yesterday is just end of January.
Ok. I would to do some recap.. Year 2009 gave me a new bright target/aim.
I got my bike. And I still don't believe I'm a Secondary 4 student.. Sitting for
Nlevel.

I now realised that after the motivational workshop, i planned my time well.
I know when to study/focus, when to relax.. But whatever it is, I still feel that
time is short.. I got less than 6 months to Nlevel.. From now on, I will ride only
at certain period, focus more on studies..

Recap
January, I got My Bmx. I did alot of recap on last year.
Planning of year 2009. Went riding alot. Meet new people.
Lost In Takraw West Zone which made me give up on Takraw.

February, I landed my 180. I met Elf/Alvina. For the first time
got to go to somerset skatepark. Met More new people. Suddenly
became serious in studies especially maths.

Now im on the way to NLEVEL. Revision Starts now.. :)
Thats all Readers..

Still By Myself..!, Sunday, March 01, 2009.