Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Greetings. Practically N-level is over. I'm so going to share what I did after papers and what happened to me after Nlevel. Initially got to enjoy. Dad gave me a call asking me about the papers. It was manageable but tough. Just hope for the best. May God be with me all time..

After papers, went to play street soccer. Played for two hours and intervals, Safiee received a phone call regarding something bad. So he rushed home. Oh that means me too. I went back home with him, and wished him may all be just fine.. So boarded the train and I know I was soaking wet in sweat so I'm scared other passengers might not be comfortable, so I moved to somwhere less crowded. Alighted at CCK and walked home. Bought The NewPaper too. Looked for jobs. SOmething caught my eyes, but the work is at CHANGI! OMG! TOO FAR..

Reached home, settle down and slept. Woke up at 3.30pm exact as something was in my mind. I sent a message to someone asking about their papers, so replied was difficult. Just hope for the best ok. So after that bathe, and prayers. So then Online on msn and had a little chit chat with friends. Without realising, some matter sneaked into my mind and destroyed my mood. I got sad and frown. Someone knew what it was. I got changed and left home. I cycle and ride. Eventually it eased my mind, but not for long, it came back bothering. True "the more we try to forget, the more we miss it" So I sat one corner and separate myself from others, started to think and nearly broke dwn. At 8pm went home. Cause my friends went home.

Onlined again and this time it really became worst. Nas called, and asked me to come down as Rian was riding. Wasn't having energy at all to ride but the issue troubles my mind again. I quickly changed and left home at night altho mum and dad disagree on my plan to ride. I just left cause my mind was in total mess. Cycle to meet frens and nearly got hit by bus and car. Too much to take, I shouted and people at the bustop looked at me with a stern face.

Met the rest and it stays in my brain and never leave. Just ride, and fell here and there. Body starts to ache but I didnt care much.. And I reached Yew Tee, the place which reminds me something. Bought Caramel Frappe at Mc Cafe and sat down nearby my school. The cold breeze weather made me sleepy and made me think about it again.. So while cycling back home, I was afar behind. Brains running thru every scene.. I kept quiet during the whole journey.. Dad called asking me to come home, so made my way back.

It was the most painful thing I have ever faced. You never

know the real intention I had, But like what others told me, Never decide

too early, wait as there are more in future. If you were to ever

reappear in my life, I hope its not going to be a fail again.

Still By Myself..!, Tuesday, October 13, 2009.