Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Ku biarkan luka dihati berdarah sehingga kering di mamah mentari. Apakah salahku disakiti sebergini.. In english, I left my wound on my heart bleed till it dry, evaporated by the sun. What is my mistake that I was left in pain in a bad state. Hmm. I tried forgetting you. No doubt that I still like you. But I know nothing will happen. I know you only treat me as a friend. But yeah. We follow the stream which will lead me to a bigger pool of water.

So now, school will resume so soon. Sec 5 continuation. I'm taking My Olevels. Can I withstand? I face Olevel and... The other one I dont need to mention.. Hmm. Going to see a few people and someone again.. Hope this sec 5, is gonna be an easy one. With presence of some. I hope my life wont be so stranded..

I never will forget you. But its hard trying to close up with you.. My intention is sincere. You know my feelings. But then.. When will I have to keep myself waiting? Let me hold a chance.. :/

Still By Myself..!, Tuesday, December 22, 2009.

Saturday, December 19, 2009

My sacrifices wasn't in vain. Not only I got it right, But I did it well.. I gave my Family A Jawdrop face. Alhamdullilah SYUKUR! My price is right.. Omg. I cant believe I did it well..
So Reached school from mosque, straight rushed to school. Sat down, at 3pm results released.
I was pretty worried. Hazwani, Fydie and a few girls shouted or sumhow screamed when
they saw their result. Wani cute seh when crying :P

For me, I didnt give any expression but I kneel down... I guess some saw what happen to me.
I quickly rushed home, called mum, dad, bro and sis. All goes WAWAWAWAHHH!!! Hmm.
I am satisfied. Now time to Push myself further Up.. UP UP AND AWAY!!!
But then, Baby are you down down down down down.. :P

You also know my intention which is sincere and clean.Only Me half dead
holding my sadness..I hope you see me.. Im here although You don't need
me, I will be here...

Still By Myself..!, Saturday, December 19, 2009.

Monday, December 7, 2009

Illegal, restricted, unauthorised, reserved... That are some words to describe smtg inaccessible. So far I'm doing good. Been working and didn't ride that much. OH!! TOMORROW IS MY PAY :D.. So Im gonna hell yeah with it! Hmm.. Next week result omg I pray hard that its gonna be a good one.. Hoping well I would get something good and then go to Higher Nitec maybe?Please pray for me and friends that we attain good results for Nlevels. Im not gonna go sec 5 cause I know, disaster means disaster..

So Lets talk about my life. I've been working. Monday to friday, 8am to 5pm. Traffic jams, Heavily cramped in trains. Foul Smell in train. Getting into trouble with authority. Thats what I've been seeing. Thank god last few days Dad fetch me and sent me to work. At least it saved me from being cramped up in the morning. But I appreciate life. Thats what it is. Some people Never worked before and hence took life for granted. But when they started working, they know the pain to get that pathetic hundreds per month isnt an easy thing. So my plan was to stop working when get results. But then mum came up with a good suggestion, Get result and decide. Got time continue working. So then thats when, when school reopen, I will have bucks of money to hold on to.

So then Riding lessen. I cant ride much due to busy working hours. I loved to go ecp on friday, but then when i work monday to friday, I missed prayers and also my normal routine. But for money, its sacrificial. I sacrificed my hobby, just to gain experience, and money. For me, sacrifices have to be made in life. If not, we will fail..

Even in bmx, I sacrificed my fear to do air. Omg I did do over coping air. But then BOOM! I fell..
Fell on my balls. Sian. So then, fear comes again, but i sacrificed it again. Im gonna air again so soon. Make it like a bunny hop.. :)

Christmas coming, sales starting. Im gonna go shopping :)

Still By Myself..!, Monday, December 07, 2009.