I don't know who to talk to. Well Im stuck in a bad situation. A situation that can cause both chaos and suffering.. I don't know what I should do. I realised how true or REAL my brother's words are. Freedom is the need of everyone. I feel that my Freedom is constricted. I cant ride anytime as I like. Im hooked to something big.. I cant simply back off, because it will shatter somebody's life.
I started to realise the meaning of word "Enjoy". Its just insane. It makes one go superly crazy and feel so great when you had the fullest ENJOY. But now, I just have to adhere that Enjoy is getting lesser and lesser for me. I cant ride anytime I want. I cant Sleep anyhow without reporting. I cant do anything anytime because I know, Im tied to something...Love...
At 9pm no one knows tears was running down my cheek cause it was a short one.. I miss my previous life.. Yes, I say this, someone might come and see and be hurt.. But this is the only place i've got to let it all out.. I dont know why I just want to be free like a soaring bird.. I just want to feel, Im free.. No limits. Nothing. But just to myself and my life. But I know, Nothing can change that. I want to disappoint nobody. So, even if its a pain to me, I'll just take it.
Still By Myself..!, Sunday, November 21, 2010.